Well its that time again to vacate England and hit Menorca, all the usual family stuff plus more pictures. I have at times thought whether or not I should take my camera, I seem to never be in any shots but have the thing glued to me. It can be a love hate relationship, on the one hand I have everything I need in a bag that I lug round. On the other occasions I enjoy the day out without the cumbersome camera . Days I don't have the camera I wouldn't say I miss much, I just feel like I should be doing something , capturing an event or the landscape. You know what they say if you don't post it on Facebook, Twitter or Instagram it , it didn't happen, right?. You have seen the Meme's on working out ! When I do take the beast out I have every lens , worry about it being stolen and unless the image is what I imagine i wont take the camera out of the bag. Its a double edged sword for me . Don't get me wrong I take images and they don't have to be perfect and so on but there still is a criteria in my head which I can't just override . I still want to look at an image and enjoy it rather than it be a snap shot to say "I was ere" to coin a phrase.
So what has this brought me too? not much in fact, apart from breaking the holidays abroad down to me being less stressed and enjoying the food and company or enjoying the company and food but constantly looking for something to snap. Either way its all good, I don't sit at home telling myself off and staring into a mirror. I think the happy plateau is realising its me, not the camera not the obsessing over taking pictures (although that helps). If I didn't do what I do then we wouldn't be here and this blog wouldn't exist. Ignoring the stats and comments about context, philosophy and self doubt we only need to draw from this what we end up with. I'm a great believer in the "journey" not the "finality" but in this case as the holiday has a start and a finish, plus an outcome that is the result. After many times doing the same routine whether I go into town or out for a bite to eat the question is the same camera or no camera. The finality is that does not really matter but when on a holiday it does in many ways.
I still come home every year an enjoy the pictures I have taken and the holiday itself. Many times the process afterwards and sifting through images make the whole idea more clinical, but that is another facet that appeals to me. So its a win win in many aspects.
The camera has become a big part of my life and I wouldn't change it for the world. It is another extension of me and what I see, whether others find it interesting is another issue. Anyway I have to go now and decide how many memory cards to take !!